Hellooooo.
Tonight's entry will be short and sweet. I have commited myself to start over (again) with my life. I hope you have smelling salts on hand because today I did something that I haven't done since July 2011...I went to church! Yep, that's the rumble you heard about 9:30 this morning, but I have to say, it was a good thing. For the past few weeks, I've been feeling very isolated and alone...spiritually. We feed our bodies when they're hungry but so many times we neglect the soul. I haven't always been the kind of person I should be, but I have deep religious beliefs. I know that I'm here on this earth for a purpose, but I allowed myself to get sidetracked, out of touch, spiritually lost in a way. But thanks to loving family and friends, I was welcomed back with open arms. In case you haven't read my blog before, I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints...aka...Mormon. I really don't like to refer to my church as "Mormon" because there are so many misinformed people out there who judge because of what they've heard over the years. YES, we are Christians, YES we believe in God and His son Jesus Christ...hence the correct name. I've always found peace and comfort being an active member, but I'm also human and I let myself get caught up in worldly things. It's my desire to get back where I need to be....there's nothing quite as wonderful as knowing that He is with me and He loves me. And, not just me, our Heavenly Father loves all of His children...even when we're aren't very lovable; real, unconditional, eternal love.
Today was a long day but a good day. I'm thankful for the support and love from some very dear people...Sharon, Craig, Roxanne, and Bishop Cain. We give up on ourselves many times but thankfully there are people who are there for us, to help us spiritually and in many other ways. I am humble tonight, I am blessed tonight.
It's dark and quiet..just the lights blinking on the computer. The hum of the computer and.....a snoring cat! It's like the universe is against me tonight/this morning, whatever it is. The snoring cat is mocking me..saying ha ha I can sleep but you can't, so I'm trying to stop fighting it, maybe I'm supposed to be awake for a reason. Don't they say everything happens for a reason? "They" probably get enough sleep. In some ways it is nice; I can sit here and try and clear my head...I heard that! Yes, even my head is filled with stuff occasionally. Thinking that even though I'm a rebel child, a hardheaded woman, the Lord still loves me and blesses me. I take Him for granted sometimes, but I hope He knows that I am thankful for the times I've been blessed, rescued, helped in ways that could only be attributed to a higher power.
Ok, I think I will try to sleep now...to sleep, per chance to dream?
Good morning everyone! It's 2:16 in the morning and my constant companion of the night is here with me.....his name is "insomnia." Webster's describes insomnia as "chronic inability to sleep" and that is a fitting description. There are other words for it but I don't think I'll put them up. Not sleeping well has become an unwelcome part of my life as of late; tonight's reason...the neighborhood dogs are barking.
My new life (the unemployed life) is moving along pretty well. I'm checking into working at home, some good prospects are being checked out. All things considered, I'm doing ok.
Yes, the dog is still barking. I just want to go over there and ask him what his problem is and what can I do to shut him up.
What is that sound? Listen....it's the sound of a dog not barking. Maybe I can try this thing called sleep again. Everyone have a safe and peaceful night. Peace is a wonderful thing...
yes..I spoke too soon...dog is barking again...
Happy New Year!
Well, another year has come and gone; another Thanksgiving, another Christmas and...another grandson! We welcomed Jax Creede on Sunday, January 8th. He wasn't expected until Feb. 4th so this was a pleasant surprise. He's beautiful and he smiles alot. He had a few problems that required him to be on oxygen for awhile, then after he went home, he wasn't gaining weight or maintaining his body temp. so he has been back to the hospital, but all is well now.
My sister, brother-in-law, and I spent Christmas evening with Ryan, Erica, her parents, brother, grandparents and of course Hudson and Rylan. It was such a wonderful, special evening when it's easy to feel the love of family. We so enjoyed the hospitality, the food, and being together.
Christmas didn't seem much like Christmas this year; too many issues going through my mind..health, work, confusion. I had become very unhappy in my job; I felt out of place for the first time in 6 years. So at this time I am going to be working from home and finding out what I really want to do with my life. I hope to find a job that will have people who appreciate what I have to offer, things like how much effort I put in to do a good job. We will see...but it was time for a change.
Otherwise, life is moving along nicely. I'm thankful for loyal friends who been there to lift me up when I was down, who let me vent my frustrations and fears.
As always I am deeply thankful for my family,for their love, consideration, and generosity.
Let's all pray that this year will be successful for us all. Will write more tomorrow.
this handsome guy is Lionel...he belongs to a friend of mine who lives in England. An appropriate photo for Halloween don't you think??
