There is one hour and 17 minutes before the beginning of a new year will be coming in. It will arrive all fresh and new, filled with hope of a better year than the one rapidly coming to a close. I, for one, am glad to see 2010 go...in fact I'm trying my best to shove it on out the door. 2010 was not the greatest of years...for me it was a reminder that I'm human, I make mistakes, and some lessons I should have learned a long time ago still have me needing refresher courses and summer school ... a tutor perhaps?
I've had issues with health, spiritual issues, self esteem (that's always an issue), feeling the pain from the effects of decisions of other people. I've experienced sadness, loneliness, frustration...mainly at myself because I didn't live up to my own expectations. On the other hand, I've experienced a lot of very happy times; time spent in the company of my family and friends, the joy of spending time with adored grandchildren..I happen to think Hannah, Bryson, Kennedy, Hudson, and soon Rylan are the most perfect and special grandchildren in the world! (They take after me.....don't you dare laugh) : )
I'm definitely staying up until midnight...so I may say a fond farewell to some of the most troubling things & people from 2010. We have an opportunity everyone to start with a clean slate; a new outlook, and perhaps a new perspective.
Am I going to be perfect? Hardly...but I know I can improve on some aspects...something that has troubled me a lot is the fact that some things that I had planned for my life simply are never going to happen. It's really disappointing to know "what you want to be when you grow up" and realize, hey, you're too old to do it. One of my plans for the new year is to take some college classes online. Will I get that degree in forensics? I doubt it...but I can expand my world and add some knowledge. I may be older but I still have value and we're never too old to learn.
I'm thankful for my family...my sister Virginia and my brother in law Rip have been so very generous to me this year, well, really always. I want them to know how deeply I appreciate their help.
I'm thankful for the love of my children. I know they have their own lives and two of them have their own families, but I thank them for taking time to call me or stop by to visit.
I'm thankful for my friends. Carl you rock! You're always there for me even though we live in different parts of the country; I know if I need someone to talk to .. you're a phone call or text away. I hope you know how much I cherish our friendship! And Joann, we've been out of touch for awhile, but please know I love you like a sister.
Carlos, I've never met you in person, but know that you've touched my life. I love you as a friend and I think you're very special.
So, I'm loading up an imaginary boat. I'm putting certain people, things, disappointments, and other assorted junk on it. I'm saying bon voyage, goodbye, and good riddance. I tried to put diabetes on the boat but it adamantly refused to go; so I'm stuck with it but it should be warned...I'm in control of it and not the other way around.
Welcome 2011!! It's my hope and my prayer that this year will be the best year of our lives. "The best is yet to be." Well, so they say.
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