Hello world......happy Saturday! It's a glorious rainy, stormy day here. It's been a quiet and peaceful day; how I love the rain, the thunder. I feel very close to nature during a thunderstorm.
There are a lot of things I could write about today, some of which would probably be not so nice. Have you ever felt that you had a sign on your back that says "I'm a fool looking for love...please come and hurt me." or one of my personal favorites..."I want an eternal companion so much that I'll believe your lies." Am I wrong to want a loving husband? Is that so much to ask?? Once again, I have been taught a lesson about working on my spiritual self and being patient as I prepare for a companion. I believe the promise that if I will continue to be faithful I will be blessed with someone. Why can't I be patient?
I'd like to offer a little advice to the men out in the world. Please don't put yourself on a singles dating site such as Match.com, Eharmony, or Christian Mingle in you're not...well single. It's dishonest, disrespectful and hurtful to many people; don't lie because the truth always comes out eventually. So....I'm a little older and maybe a little wiser yet again. I've decided to stop worrying about my relationship status and focus on me...doing what I need to do to make me the person I should be and was meant to be. Keeping the faith and not falling for deceptive people who are miserable and want to drag me down with them.
Sometimes I feel that I am not good enough, but we are all created in the image of a loving Heavenly Father; we're His children...how could we NOT be good enough?? It's so easy to play the pity card but if we stop for a moment and reflect on what we have instead of what we don't have it's pretty eye opening. I'm blessed beyond measure to have my loving family, caring friends who are always there for me, the sweetest, smartest and most beautiful cats in the world, but the most important blessing of all is a knowledge of who I am, where I came from, why I am here and depending on my actions, where I will go.
Life is what we make it. Take each new day as a fresh start; be kind to other people, lighten their load; each one of us has a problem, an issue, a pain...that makes us all having something in common. If you want to feel really good inside...do something for someone else but don't advertise the fact that you did. A smile, an ear to listen, even a gentle touch can mean the world to someone. My landlord is one of the kindest people I know. One of his favorite sayings is "my day isn't complete until I've helped someone." Can you imagine how much better the world would be if everyone did just one good thing for someone else?
On a different note, my son Ryan was awarded custody of his 4yr old son Hudson. Ryan has been down a long, frustrating, hurtful road. The months overseas not being able to talk to Hudson, the legal battles all finally came to a resolution a couple of weeks ago. See how our actions have consequences? My son, like me and the rest of the human race, is not perfect, but he is a wonderful, loving father. I'm thankful that he is the man he is today because the role model he had growing up was not a very good one.
I deeply love Ryan, my son Timmy, and my daughter Laura...I pray that they know that. My love also is for Hannah, Bryson, Kennedy, Hudson, Rylan, and the little sprout that's on the way. Family is everything...."Families are Forever"
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